soul default
Awake.
It’s anger that brakes.
I have to withstand
right through the end.
A gage.
I gave you a gage.
But nothing remains now.
The rest of me is gone now.
All.
Alone.
I’m gone.
Nothing to hold on.
Untie the knot.
Falling from the top.
Shutting down the mind.
Slowing down the blood.
I’m in soul default.
The damn.
They don’t understand.
The effect and the cause.
They didn’t suppose.
Sleep.
Forced and deep.
Get closer to death
to restart the breath.
hate
tonight I hate
I’m an hooligan
and I’ll get my fun
you run
you have to run
nothing remains now
nothing to save now
the worst song I’ve ever done
This is the easear song I’ve ever sung,
just simple words.
This is the worst song I’ve ever done,
the bitterest one.
You’ve contaminated everything.
You’ve contaminated everything.
You’ve just convinced me
and now the refrain you suggest me…
It’s dark inside of me.
This is the song about the ‘fucking all of things’…
and letting fall them apart.
This is the song about the point of no return
about ‘nothing else to do’
and you’ve contaminated everything.
You’ve contaminated everything.
You’ve just convinced me
and now the refrain you suggest me…
It’s dark inside of me.
mom morphine
You makes me in troubles.
You makes me in hurry.
And she gets me in a boubble.
I’m hanging on and you don’t feel so sorry
I’ll push you away.
I’ll kill you away.
She’s loading my gun
and she has just begun.
So it’s going on.
I’m not alone.
My Mom Morphine
forgives my sin.
You fill the hole,
but you stuff it with shit.
She’s healing my soul.
She prepares me to hit.
I’ll push you away.
I’ll kill you away.
She’s loading my gun
and she has just begun.
So it’s going on.
I’m not alone.
My Mom Morphine
forgives my sin.
never seen
Praying for not to be,
everything seems to be
even a part of me,
perfectly shown on me.
Lord of empty spaces
take it just one for me.
Lord of broken things
please collect them for me.
If I could be me as a sin.
If I could be anaestethized.
If I could be perfectly clean.
If I could be just never seen.
Hiding for not to find,
all of things just come out.
Trying to keep inside,
what I just think about.
Lord of empty spaces
take it just one for me.
Lord of rising flames
please just purifie me.
foresight
My innermost breath warming up your jowl, my love.
The crutches fall, keep creeping on my own, my love.
I just want the world venerates me as a gOD
and I want you to dress in black for me, my love.
Obtrude my self, I trust in the foresight, my love.
Dispose the jolt, you’ll bear the effects on me, my love.
Hey you all don’t even think that I could hit
and you all just don’t know how glorious can be.
Prepare the celebration for me,
I will get a trophy for you,
you will always care for me,
I will always care for you.
I must clear away all the nails from the floor, my love.
so that you can walk safely towards me, my love.
Hey you always try to complicate what is right
and you’ll see the riders fight until the end for right.
empire servants
You’re Empire servants,
you’ve got a loan on your soul
and it lasts forever,
but you will die before,
you ignore you’re sore
and your rotten core
– the Ego you adore -
The eyes, the stomach, the veins,
the liver, the brain
– sacrificed in vain -
They’ll keep squeezing,
you’ll keep sucking
and there’s nothing to do,
because they are you.
you’re Empire servants,
you’ll keep doing the same things,
just fucking things that hurt you
and the vomit they bring,
the scene is clear,
you’re down on your knees,
– but it’s not for gOD that you bleed -
The eyes, the stomach, the veins,
the liver, the brain
– sacrificed in vain -
pain provider
There’s a generator,
there’s an accumulator,
there’s a brains raper,
and the circuit feeding all of us.
Pain provider.
Cosmic lier.
New technology’s generator,
it’s totally chemical,
it’s based on perpetuum rotten core,
it’s inside,
it’s the demon inside
all of fucking us.
I am a visionary
I’m a visionary,
I’m a an outcast,
I ain’t nothing to say to you,
I ain’t nothing to say to anyone.
I’m a visionary,
I see the things that are not there,
I am a dadaist,
I make my day just messing up the pieces.
I am hollow,
the rotten is dried by now,
it vanished.
I am clean, finally clean.
I’m a visionary,
I don’t listen to you anymore,
I am a rubber wall,
meant to protect the no man’s land.
I am hollow,
I purged my brain and I,
I took a dump.
I am clean, finally clean.
traitors
The traitors were pushed aside,
they lost the respect of their clan,
it was not forever,
it marked them forever.
The traitors had to prove their innocence,
they were taken away by their friends,
they set out for a journey,
away from home journey.
Sometimes they didn’t return anymore,
sometimes they lost the will to return.
They forgot the way home,
instead found their own throne,
further down the abyss
they finally belong.
Winters passed and damaged the bones,
guilt still marked the things they’d done,
reminding the victim,
becoming the victim.
Conscience erased, it was the only way,
demon inside, the only one to pray,
I did so…
I’m a traitor.
dolphin
The dolphin heave in sight and I
always think he’s pushing higher.
I break a bowl for the fuck of it,
to hear the noise of a broken thing.
He rise above the water line,
he breaks the wave and gets back to the light.
I loose the will to put things ok,
music takes me in its darkest way.
Along the line of insane things,
away from line of useless things,
over line, derange the line, overcome…
And I belong to this,
now I belong to this.
The dolphin is proud, he controls his moving,
action is loud. energy flowing.
I’m going around, staring at the shoes,
I grip the soil and I am so brused.
He faces the sea, goes to the lenghts,
his destiny, until the end.
I slip away in choosing my way,
the rotten fear is my own decay.
isolation
I take a bus to go nowhere.
It never stops in fact I stay yet there.
I see outside no familiar things,
people inside no familiar things.
I take a bus to go away from here.
It never stops and go so far from here.
No familiar places, that is what I want.
No familiar people, don’t speak to anyone.
Isolation brings me in a desolate place.
Desolate place makes me isolate.
Only want you to leave me alone,
I take a breath if you leave me alone,
No matters what you think you know,
Only matters now that I taste the glow.
Isolation leads me in a desolate place.
In this desolate place I like to feel isolate.
Noting nothing I feel good.
Feeling nothing I feel so good.
alien
You think I feel depressed,
you say I should move on,
but I’ve lost my consciousness,
keep saying me breath on,
but you will never understand,
you’ll never understand,
never understand, never.
You can’t bear when I complain,
you say I’m a nikilist
and admit I think the same,
but I know It’s not only this
and you can’t feel through my nerves,
you can’t taste with my mouth,
you can’t see through my eyes,
you just can’t see.
The bitterness I feel
just from the inside,
inner core loathing,
you’ll never feel it.
The bitterness I feel,
just from the inside,
inner core vomit,
you’ll never feel it.
You think I search for the worse of things,
I dig a hole to pray down on my knees
and it’s not normal how I sink,
it’s not human how I grip.
Don’t you see within my eyes,
see within my eyes,
stare the blue-gray light,
don’t you see that I’m an alien.
I can’t assimilate your shit,
arrogance peels my skin,
violence defiles my brief,
I’m imploding, within, I can’t remain.
quiet of the abyss
No one knows what I could find,
no one says much more than a lie,
this time I have to go down there…
only way… I’ll go down there.
No one knows how fast I descent,
no one cares how deep I descent,
the soil I taste it with the knees
the nose will make me feel the desease.
How does it feel?
lay
The quiet of the abyss
fill
The inner dephts I sink in
drown
The gravity crashing me
die
The quiet of the abyss
The currents flow I’ve stopped to oppose,
all got appleased in desolate undertow,
dust is wet, tide got withdrawn,
scraps on surface, tide got withdrawn.
No one knows when insects will come,
everybody knows why the insects will come,
I’ll wait down here the debasement of things,
I’ll drink just here to decay of fucking things.
How does it feel?
Me as an enemy
Have you ever stared at clouds getting tickier?
Have you ever thought I could deceive you?
Have you ever tried to think of me as an enemy?
Have you ever tried to doubt of me?
Have you ever thought I could upset your life?
I’m not joking, begin to realise I’m not joking.
Haviest pain is to watch the leaf falling down.
The abit of time fading away is natural like dying.
We’re all conservatives, especially in changing our feelings.
I’d like you would change your opinion of me.
I’d like you wouldn’t get me wrong anymore.
I’d like to have an estranging effect on you
and I’d like to succeed in scaring you.
Sometimes you must change your point of view.
Sometimes we need to question everything.
Haviest pain is to watch the leaf falling down.
We’re bounds to the ground by the discomfort keeping us down,
Now I want to deliver me from the trap hopelessly,
I’m ready to sacrifice you
[K] – 1999
Primary state
I shouldn’t let they took their time and trained hard their fist
I should do take my holy cross and go away with your kiss
I could do fuck their ignorance and throw them all away
I shouldn’t let they took their time and understood the game
My gOD how I make it through – how – this time.
My gOD how I make it through.
They’ll come right armed and straight towards,
nothing more to save today.
They’ll break it down and smash it down,
nothing else to build today.
My gOD how I make it through – how – this time.
My gOD how I make it through – how – this time.
As reduced to a primary state,
How many bended sacrifices am I insane?
I shouldn’t let they lit their nerve and tempered their steel
If now they tread me, now they sink me,
It’s why I just deserved this.
My gOD how I make it through – how – this time.
My gOD how I make it through.
As reduced to a primary state,
How many bended sacrifices am I insane?
[K] – 2002
The arrogant ones
The fucking demon inside all of us
knows exactly how to fuck
our sexy, smart hypocrisy.
I don’t like the people but there’s someone
that I just want to tear apart:
the arrogant ones.
This time I want to express a lot of cares:
hate, bitterness and faint.
I just want to fuck up all those pigs,
it will come the day I’ll overcome the fix.
I know I’m singing words a bit extremes…
I figure how it could have been
and the people never learns
Awakes underwater and above the flames
and just there we’ll chose the way:
bolds arise, cowards remain.
This time I want to express a lot of cares:
hate, bitterness and faint.
I just want to fuck up all those pigs,
it will come the day I’ll overcome the fix.
Underwater and above the flames:
bolds arise, cowards remain.
[K] – 2002
I am a visionary
I’m a visionary,
I’m a an outcast,
I ain’t nothing to say to you,
I ain’t nothing to say to anyone.
I’m a visionary,
I see the things that are not there,
I am a dadaist,
I make my day just messing up the pieces.
I am hollow, the rotten is dried by now, it vanished.
I am clean, finilly clean.
I’m a visionary,
I don’t listen to you anymore,
I am a rubber wall,
meant to protect the no man’s land.
I am hollow, I purged my brain and I, I took a dump.
I am clean, finilly clean.
[K] – 2003
Foresight
My innermost breath warming up your jowl, my love.
The crutches fall, keep creeping on my own, my love.
I just want the world venerates me as a gOD
and I want you to dress in black for me, my love.
Obtrude my self, I trust in the foresight, my love.
Dispose the jolt, you’ll bear the effects on me, my love.
Hey you all don’t even think that I could hit
and you all just don’t know how glorious can be.
Prepare the celebration for me,
I will get a trophy for you,
you will always care for me,
I will always care for you.
I must clear away all the nails from the floor, my love.
so that you can walk safely towards me, my love.
Hey you always try to complicate what is right
and you’ll see the riders fight until the end for right.
Prepare the celebration for me,
I will get a trophy for you,
you will always care for me,
I will always care for you.
[K] – 2003
Holy Joy
I gave up to the absolute,
it’s a tension that annihilates you,
up to now, always needed to understand.
Listen to the air moving,
recognise signs in the clouds,
never again conjectures distorting my true will.
I don’t care about the world,
got nothing, just nothing to advice.
My highest joy… excite my spirit and lift it high.
My holy joy is in what that I can feel
and I can’t understand.
I breathe the cold of the road,
contours shade in a devout hope,
I’m beginning to imagine the horizon.
Listen to the air moving,
recognise signs in the clouds,
never again conjectures distorting my true will.
I don’t care about the world,
I’m just living for my self.
My highest joy… excite my spirit and lift it high.
My holy joy is in what that I can feel
and I can’t understand.
[K] – 1999
Pain provider
There’s a generator,
there’s an accumulator,
there’s a brains raper,
and the circuit feeding all of us.
Pain provider
Cosmic lier
New technology’s generator,
it’s totally chemical,
it’s based on perpetum rotten core,
it’s inside,
it’s the demon inside
all of fucking us.
[K] – 2004
Alms
All your care for me,
all your healing me,
have you found out that is too much for me?
Your charity’s gone,
done what could be done,
you thought your engaging was restored to save me?
I’ve tried to explain you
the penitence borne for you,
the health I loose,
every time I give way and pray your alms.
Every time I give way and pay your alms.
You’ve had to repent,
were investing in me and
now you have to review your plain.
But you knew the risk,
keep getting your task,
what should I do, never hidden my stains.
[K] – 2000
Angelslave
I woke up this morning reminding me the fumes.
Still don’t know what happened, but I can taste the gloom.
You know when conscience has been betrayed every thing is allow,
the warming up of our brain exited is all that we will follow.
Angelslave,
you don’t see how the chains will tear tour wings.
Your desperate flight is turnig to a delirium of a drunk.
Light and sound from underground soon will push you further down
and we will watch this tragedy exited as a wolf at the moon.
I dress slowly, my hands are shaking, my shirt is sticky and slack.
It feels like that I made old and I fell sick tonight.
Still don’t know what I’ve done, but I can feel the guilt,
the warming up with of half-closed eyes…
all of this seems to be a strange trick.
[K] – 2001
The ethics of River
The ethics of River…
absorbing human tension.
The ethics of River…
becoming and yet conserving one self.
The ethics of River…
one can’t stop and even move.
The ethics of River…
it flows Earth and Sky around Him.
River feeds Time and Space and vibrates Air.
River is sad, how much is vainvaround Him.
Water dances, moves and River comes
The ethics of River…
forcing any strength in right direction.
The ethics of River…
insisting, striding, keeping on the trip.
The ethics of River…
not choosing the way, being the way.
[K] – 1999
Ordinary state of grace
Did you expect that your design
overcome the warning line?
the action sequence you have planned
now is starting to derange.
There was a time where that could care me,
where I could lie to support your waddling,
but now you say I’m not the same
anymore and never again.
I am just in a ordinary state of grace.
I don’t need to search for any answers to justify my way.
I’ve ever thought that you could break
the chain of habit… you don’t even shake,
you’re engaging in worthless things,
vacuum purpose, useless skill.
You should ask your self where does the path lead,
endless line of all demanding,
I’ve already started to walk
on this strange age a few hours ago.
[K] – 2000
Denial
Guilt where are You?
I need to taste You in my stomach.
Grief what do you prepare?
I can’t stop to control you.
People are blind and I pretend not to see,
they all are poor and I just fit with in
and all I know, here’s the storm
and here I’m looking for
you and you will find me.
Thank you for the day, when I find out the way,
to see with my own eyes the misery they try to hide,
now I’m here to stay,
now that we share the same prayer,
have I been waiting for you?
Vacuum world makes me blue,
are you the denial?
Guilt I can’t see you
and yet Omen forecasts You.
He has grabbed me and soon,
I will be before You again.
I’m all the emotions she can feel now,
it’ s not enough, the conscience knows that I loose her
and I hope it’s not this way,
light after storm deceives,
would I would be denied.
[K] – 2001
Electricity of pain
The truth has to be earned,
the sacrifice… be learned,
the way I feel, what it seems to be,
just opaque surface through which I can’t see.
The match has to be won,
so I creep on straight through the bones,
I crowd out my slow routine
and I belong now to the stream…
the old wise sewer spares the seeds,
insane strength feeds the parasites,
he knows he could not save the grain…
it’s because of electricity of pain.
Visions rush in scratched,
the sparks wave… stuck,
our grabbing arm will trench the soil,
we’ll let the corpses, we’ll take the spoils.
Time will wait no more,
the greed is my whore
and I give in my sick routine
and I belong now to the stream
[K] – 2002
Breaking off the fight
Sadness is a beautiful blue- grey sphere… above my head, my fucking head.
Walk fast and feel inside my eyes the cold of the air…
need to stay smooth.
Never felt so sore, deny all I swore.
All I was is gone, what defiles me has come…
where were you?… in all of this… where the fuck were you?
They keep saying I will understand,
it’s just a question of time,
but I really don’t think that I will understand,
every habit has its surprise…
and now I have become the one who betrays the fools,
and there’s nothing to compromise,
no teeth, no strengths… I’m breaking off the fight,
I am sorry for breaking off the fight,
but this is the way it’s turning out.
That does not fit to me, things was so different before…
I have withdrawn, I have withdrawn.
It’s surprising how my time swells and stops
melt in sound, liquid sound.
[K] – 2001
Black champagne
Champagne turns black
as I shed it out at sea at night.
Water’s calm and breathes close to me,
I breath to, lying on the back,
sinking bruised in the soaked sand.
The mark will remain,
the higher the tide…
the mark is on the depth.
I’ve tried to get back
to the way it was before,
but the closer I get,
the worse it becomes.
Black champagne…
I’ll drink to all
the things are going wrong.
I will start from the beginning
and I will end at the only end
and in between the ocean I pull through.
The mark will still remain,
the higher the tide…
the old mark is on the depth.
I’ve tried to slink away
…the nerve not to hesitate,
but the stronger I push away,
the further I sink… and stay.
[K] – 2002
The place to take the best photos from
I go in the places, places where I hear my self walking,
I spin round and wait until the white light shades.
I gain time and never make up my mind,
just look for the best place to take the best photos from.
Stand off on the road, am I pointing in the right direction,
no matter more here’s the skyline lifting high my look.
Kwow what I have to do, I have to catch the mood,
just look for the best place to take the best photos from.
I go in the places, places where I hear my self walking.
Recall the ability I will use it in dressing white light.
Time flies, I have to make up my mind,
just look for the best place to take the best photos from.
I’m still waiting for the darkness shows
the beautiful shadow of the pain of the world,
then I may gain much more than I can claim…
photos cuase they to cry for pain.
[K] – 2002
The guilt
Now it’s clear, I know, I am gone… too far,
I don’t see how I could turn around now…
I suffered, I undervalued, I didn’t fight enough,
I gave up, I didn’t act, I didn’t share.
It’s time to expiate the guilt,
to cover my eyes with the hands,
staring at the dark.
I am lonely in my silence,
I’m not looking for an illusion,
I’m only looking at the life besides me,
it moves and I don’t make it out,
I’ve chosen, I’ve agreed to come to the compromise,
no excuses, that’s no good, my salvation is a long way off.
[K] – 1998
Brilliant white of a distant sun
Early morning light I’m breathing brilliant white of a distant sun,
So much is turning to lies whispering in my ears I’m on the run.
Even though I’ve been accused, even though all that was true,
I don’t feel I have to owe, but I keep running until I’m lost.
It doesn’t matter all fake excuses,
Just sorrow talks about what failed,
Now I focus on the brilliant white of a distant sun.
Do we have to stretch the noise to dam its strength unbearable?
Turn off my music beating sick, break down the pulse it’s pounding deep?
Ok it’s enough, you’re turning pale,you even think you’ve been betrayed,
but worse it all is true.
I keep running in this morning, look at the colours of the sky,
they’re becoming clear, I’m waiting. I’ll be detected by the sun.
Even though the sentence’s passed and all you say I am to blame,
I just don’t think that I will serve it ‘cause your court just sucks, by now I know it,
but I suppose you’ll use the authority
so I can turn back to gain the safety
only focus on the brilliant white of a distant sun
[K] – 2002
Karmastate
It’s a hidden signal
but I know it exists,
did you feel the precious warmth tonight?
It’s a confused code,
I’ll rearrange it,
did you feel the healer touch tonight?
Our soul lives in pleasure dome,
years fall down and an other autumn passes me by,
now I can touch the light, here’s our morning,
gOD make this drug eternal and perfect.
We must not forecast our fate,
but only conserve the state,
the karmastate we hidden from our view.
Now it’s time to celebrate the event,
before I could not understand,
we wasted time in time
and that’s enough.
[K] – 2000
State of things
This is the time for doubts and distrust.
This is the time when I can’t make my self understood.
I should’nt despise so much, I should’nt devalue so much,
but in teh current state of things,
it’s hard for me to shake the desease.
This is the time when I can’t read through any book.
This is the time when I drink toomuch instant coffee,
I should be delighted and happier that now,
but in the current state of things,
it’s hard for me to shake the desease.
smothering the beat that complicates my calm,
unlearning the lessons that deflected my mind.
The effort could be vain,it’s unfair if it’s vain.
I can taste your pain in my troath.
I can feel your warmth on my eye lids.
May be I’m starting to cry.
All I want is crying now.
This is the day when all conjectures are wrong.
This is the black day when nothing concerns me at all,
I should be more true and I should be honest,
I wish I couldtell the truth,once in a while, at least.
looking for the music that will clean my heart,
waiting forthe feelings that will put me in your arms,
The effort could be vain,it’s unfair if it’s vain.
[K] – 1998
Best pain
You are the lie I want to hear,
hanging joy that I fear.
You are the threatch turning to truth,
you are the problem and the solution to.
Over flowing brain in searchig whole feelings.
Innermost, desperate game in getting fake gain.
Absolutely you are my best pain.
Definetively you force me to face our labyrinth.
May be you are my destiny,
cracking ice beneath my feet.
Light that lays on dephts of the sea,
the strongest, coldest current drowing me.
Over flowing brain in searchig whole feelings.
Innermost, desperate game in getting fake gain.
[K] – 2000